My OBE, Out of Body Experience
One day in 1989, I was visiting my mother. That afternoon I was very stressed and felt dead tired, so I went for a nap in the bedroom. My sister was also visiting with her three children aged about 10, 13 and 15. My brother and his wife and three children were living with my mother, so the house was full of people creating a busy family atmosphere.
It was summer time, and everyone was eating green bean soup, a very popular Chinese summer sweet snack for cooling off, while I was sleeping. I could clearly hear the big serving spoon clanking as someone was serving the green bean soup.
I can assure you how much I wanted to get up and join the big party out there when I was lying in bed, extremely tired and bored.
As I was getting up, I felt so heavy that I had to push myself up forcefully against the bed. Upon taking a step forward getting out of bed, I immediately fell and knelt on the floor as my legs were, unexpectedly, extremely weak! As I was struggling to get up, my neice, my sister's youngest child Wawa, just happened to come to stand at the door. I was so happy to see her and wanted to talk to her, but I was so lack of energy that I could hardly activate a single muscle to open my mouth or even make a sound in my throat! In despair, I looked at her, expecting her to show her sympathy and pick me up. To my greatest surprise, she didn't even look at me! Her eyes were looking to a different direction-- somewhere behind me, ignoring me who was apparently suffering right in front of her!
I couldn't understand, let alone believe, how such a thing could have happened-- Wawa and I have been very close, especially she used to call me Auntie-mummy when she was little. How could she not help me, or, not even care to look at her dear Auntie-mummy kneeling on the floor in such misery?
"Wawa, Auntie is feeling so weak! Come and help me!" I was crying out to her in my heart as I was unable to speak.
Wawa still kept looking to the same direction, tilting her head to her right and then to her left. I looked into her eyes, trying to catch some eye contact from her but in vain. What was worse, she suddenly moved away from the door back to the big party, leaving me wondering in agony, "How could Wawa have acted as if she did not see me but looked to another direction? What was attracting her attention? What was she looking at?"
Suddenly, I had these questions:
-- Could it be that she did not see me at all, which means I was invisible to her?
-- What is there behind me where she was looking?
Astonished, I realised that
-- Wawa was looking at where I was lying-- but I had moved away from the bed!
2. If she could not see me kneeling right in front of her but stared at where I was lying, that means she could see what was on the bed-- me, visible, but not what was right in front of her-- still 'me', but invisible, from which I could infer that my body is still in bed but not here with me! Then, what am I now? Am I only a soul now? A soul without a body?
Coming to this realisation, I was overwhelmingly shocked! Am I dead? No, I am not ready to die. I have a two-year-old child to raise; I have a lot of things to attend to; I cannot just suddenly die like this! My body...? My body must still be lying behind me-- oh, no, I'm too scared to turn my head to look at it behind my back! What should I do now? Am I going to die soon if I do not get back to my body in time? Oh, no! I want to live! I want to go back to my body! But how???
That was such a hard moment full of fear and uncertainty! I was totally lost, hopeless and helpless! Not knowing what to do, I just straightened my arms above my head, leaning backwards until I came to a lying position,
"Go back! Go back to my body! I want to go back! Go back!" I hysterically shouted in my mind, surrendering myself to the unknown.
In a split second, I felt myself swiftly moving backwards in the lying position as if something was sucking me towards it. I felt myself floating to a certain position, and then stopped. I then slowly descended for a few seconds until I sensed merging with my body and heard a 'click'-- then I was back in bed-- back in my body lying in bed! I opened my eyes, and I can assure you it was the greatest relief I had/have ever had in my entire life!
"I'm back!" I simply cannot describe my feeling at that moment as I returned to the world I belonged! I felt I had died and was so lucky to be able to return! I could not contain myself!
I got up, walked to the door, to find Wawa's sister Bulu close by.
"Bulu, do you know if Wawa was here standing at the door, looking into the room, tilting her head to her right and then to her left, and then went away?" I asked Bulu.
"I wasn't paying attention. Let me ask her," Bulu said, summoning Wawa with a gesture.
Wawa came, and Bulu asked her whether she came to the door a moment ago.
"Yes, I came to the door to see what Auntie was doing," Wawa said.
"Did you move your head from side to side?" Bulu asked Wawa.
"Yeah, I saw Auntie in bed looking like she was in very deep sleep, so I was wondering why she was so tired," Wawa replied, repeating moving her head the way I saw, "Then I thought I'd better not disturb her and therefore went away, " she continued.
What Wawa said just proved that I WAS 'invisible' kneeling in fron of her after getting out of bed!
If I had not been too scared to look behind, I would have seen myself lying in bed, which would have simply clarified the whole situation. I had, and still have no idea about how I looked at that time. I felt tired and weak, and saw what I saw without paying any attention to my own appearance; otherwise, I would have known whether I looked like a ghost or not!
It was summer time, and everyone was eating green bean soup, a very popular Chinese summer sweet snack for cooling off, while I was sleeping. I could clearly hear the big serving spoon clanking as someone was serving the green bean soup.
I can assure you how much I wanted to get up and join the big party out there when I was lying in bed, extremely tired and bored.
As I was getting up, I felt so heavy that I had to push myself up forcefully against the bed. Upon taking a step forward getting out of bed, I immediately fell and knelt on the floor as my legs were, unexpectedly, extremely weak! As I was struggling to get up, my neice, my sister's youngest child Wawa, just happened to come to stand at the door. I was so happy to see her and wanted to talk to her, but I was so lack of energy that I could hardly activate a single muscle to open my mouth or even make a sound in my throat! In despair, I looked at her, expecting her to show her sympathy and pick me up. To my greatest surprise, she didn't even look at me! Her eyes were looking to a different direction-- somewhere behind me, ignoring me who was apparently suffering right in front of her!
I couldn't understand, let alone believe, how such a thing could have happened-- Wawa and I have been very close, especially she used to call me Auntie-mummy when she was little. How could she not help me, or, not even care to look at her dear Auntie-mummy kneeling on the floor in such misery?
"Wawa, Auntie is feeling so weak! Come and help me!" I was crying out to her in my heart as I was unable to speak.
Wawa still kept looking to the same direction, tilting her head to her right and then to her left. I looked into her eyes, trying to catch some eye contact from her but in vain. What was worse, she suddenly moved away from the door back to the big party, leaving me wondering in agony, "How could Wawa have acted as if she did not see me but looked to another direction? What was attracting her attention? What was she looking at?"
Suddenly, I had these questions:
-- Could it be that she did not see me at all, which means I was invisible to her?
-- What is there behind me where she was looking?
Astonished, I realised that
-- Wawa was looking at where I was lying-- but I had moved away from the bed!
2. If she could not see me kneeling right in front of her but stared at where I was lying, that means she could see what was on the bed-- me, visible, but not what was right in front of her-- still 'me', but invisible, from which I could infer that my body is still in bed but not here with me! Then, what am I now? Am I only a soul now? A soul without a body?
Coming to this realisation, I was overwhelmingly shocked! Am I dead? No, I am not ready to die. I have a two-year-old child to raise; I have a lot of things to attend to; I cannot just suddenly die like this! My body...? My body must still be lying behind me-- oh, no, I'm too scared to turn my head to look at it behind my back! What should I do now? Am I going to die soon if I do not get back to my body in time? Oh, no! I want to live! I want to go back to my body! But how???
That was such a hard moment full of fear and uncertainty! I was totally lost, hopeless and helpless! Not knowing what to do, I just straightened my arms above my head, leaning backwards until I came to a lying position,
"Go back! Go back to my body! I want to go back! Go back!" I hysterically shouted in my mind, surrendering myself to the unknown.
In a split second, I felt myself swiftly moving backwards in the lying position as if something was sucking me towards it. I felt myself floating to a certain position, and then stopped. I then slowly descended for a few seconds until I sensed merging with my body and heard a 'click'-- then I was back in bed-- back in my body lying in bed! I opened my eyes, and I can assure you it was the greatest relief I had/have ever had in my entire life!
"I'm back!" I simply cannot describe my feeling at that moment as I returned to the world I belonged! I felt I had died and was so lucky to be able to return! I could not contain myself!
I got up, walked to the door, to find Wawa's sister Bulu close by.
"Bulu, do you know if Wawa was here standing at the door, looking into the room, tilting her head to her right and then to her left, and then went away?" I asked Bulu.
"I wasn't paying attention. Let me ask her," Bulu said, summoning Wawa with a gesture.
Wawa came, and Bulu asked her whether she came to the door a moment ago.
"Yes, I came to the door to see what Auntie was doing," Wawa said.
"Did you move your head from side to side?" Bulu asked Wawa.
"Yeah, I saw Auntie in bed looking like she was in very deep sleep, so I was wondering why she was so tired," Wawa replied, repeating moving her head the way I saw, "Then I thought I'd better not disturb her and therefore went away, " she continued.
What Wawa said just proved that I WAS 'invisible' kneeling in fron of her after getting out of bed!
If I had not been too scared to look behind, I would have seen myself lying in bed, which would have simply clarified the whole situation. I had, and still have no idea about how I looked at that time. I felt tired and weak, and saw what I saw without paying any attention to my own appearance; otherwise, I would have known whether I looked like a ghost or not!
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